I'm the biggest douchebag ever!! i broke the nicest sweetest girls heart. why? because im a dumbass. all because i wanted a different girl. now i lost the sweetest girl ever. im full of shame and regret. she hates me and i don't blame her. if she showed up at my door and beat to within an inch of my life, id be more then willing to take it. then beg her to do it again when im healed. and again and again. hoping she never would end me. i don't deserve the easy way out.