All of my friends are in a relationship and I'm not. My last relationship was 3 years ago. My life is awesome and I have lovely friends but despite of that I'm not happy at all. What I desire most is a long lasting relationship but for whatever reason it doesn't happen. With my friends I have to be the strong one. All of them are complaining about their crappy lives (one of them is actually in a bad situation, the other ones are just being mad about random unnecessary things). I feel like they need a strong friend without any problems to hold their back. In reality I'm sad and depressive because I'm feeling lonely. Sometimes I think they just care about themselves and don't want to notice my pain(at times my feelings are pretty obvious because I cant hide them anymore). Additionally I dont want to accost them with my problems because I think it is pathetic to be sad and depressive just because I'm single.