I feel i'm sabotaging my own life. like every time I set a goal I bring myself down at the first try. I tell myself I have to be productive but then I can't find the energy to do anything and end up just watching tv or playing pc again. I wish I could go see a psychiatrist but I just don't have the money since I can't keep a job for the same reason. I don't know what to do anymore 'cause I really want to do something with my life, I have so many plans but I feel like there's a whole other person inside me keeping me down.