Few months ago, i had a sexfriend. We were supposed to move to Paris at the same time (but not together), and i was anxious about it because he now have a girlfriend, but also happy because he is also one of my best friends and we were supposed to study both what we wanted most. But he was taken in the school he wanted and i was not, so he moves to Paris and i don't. And now that i know that the sadness of not seeing him everyday will last not only this holiday but the next two years at least, i feel like i actually have feelings for him. I'm not saying that i would want a relationship, that i regret the sexfriend thing, or that i want anything more than the friendship we have, i just love him and i will miss him so much. It's a very weird feeling, i don't know if it's actually love ..