My parents are multi-millionaire, I have nice houses and cars with that my friends thinks i am the coolest and most happiest girl they ever met but in reality i am suffering from deep depression and i have imagined thousand times of killing myself. Even though i walk this earth with a smile but i go back to bed shedding tears and wishing i was never born. My parents are abusive and constantly black-mailing me with my education (if i don't pull up good grades, or go out with friends too much they will not let me go to school) :'( i am losing my mind every night, i can't remember the time i actually smiled. I rock myself to bed thinking of answers , i even let the V-tec kick in so i could just crash or fall of a bridge but then i stop and think about my siblings and friends. :( i am going nuts here and nobody knows or can comfort me.