I took time off from work to study for exams that are four days away, instead of preparing for them, I am just sitting wasting time over insignificant things. I know I am smart, I know I can do it but I don't wish to waste time preparing to do it. This delusion is going to screw my exams, I know it, I want to care it but I don't seem to care it. I am deceiving everyone around me and throwing away my future. Fu*k.