I had to relationships where I thought things were going great, until they both ended where the guys said, we were not an actual couple, and that were leaving me/ after everything couples do. Finally a bf I thought I could be sure of, I asked what he thought about our future, and I got a not sure answer. Most of my life I've felt unwanted, and now I'm really turning to more thoughts of just dying, in any way possible. The only reason I'm still alive? My pet &, my job - I am in service line, and these are the only things that make me forget.