I have dated many uptight, controlling people to help me manage my addictions and bad behaviors. No one understands why I date people who I have nothing in common with and constantly complain about, but they don't get that its not about what I want, its what I need to help me stay clean and live a respectable life. After years of counseling and rehab, this is the only thing I have found that really works for me. I've never been proud of this, but its what I've had to do. Now, because of these choices, I am less than a year away from becoming a police officer. Amazing what surrounding yourself with the people you need, rather than those you want, can do to turn your life around.