The more I think about myself, the more I think I won't really ever be in love. I'm not sure if it is a subconscious fear or just my nature, but I tend to ignore people in my life and I'm not good at being a friend. I'm not the jerky kind of person who just toys with others, I hate that, but I'm just not really close to anyone. Super loner type and find people exhausting to be around. It's kind of sad, but I've mentally prepared for that.