I let a guy convince me I was in love with him because I couldn't get rid of him (stalker much) and I felt like he understood me. I told him I loved him and would never leave him. he even sexted me a couple times. but it didn't turn me on. it sickened me. perhaps I was sickened with myself. one day, after three years, I told him I loved him. the next day, I told him to never talk to me again and that I didn't love him and that I was going to block him from all contacts. I warned him that if he contacted me again, I'd call the police. the truth is, I was terrified every minute since I met him. but he understood me.. or so I thought. after getting pastoral advice and from my many mentors and counselors, i saw that I didn't care for my "lover" at all. it was all an act. but how was I to know?