I am working on an endeavor and need assistance with it. I have remade myself quite well, but it is not complete. Nowhere near it. Everyone wants to be a certain way. While it is possible ; it takes great strength and time. I have one last step to being complete. I need to eliminate the minuscule emotions I have left. I do this in the way of when I feel any emotion I smash it, ignore it, and degrade it until it does not exist. To be frank I wish to be heartless. I am pretty much there, but there is still work to do. This is where you guys come in. I need to be provided with "horrible" things that may provoke emotions. Although I am in a very troubling predicament. I am a parasite, a succubus. I feed off of others feelings, life, and thoughts. As well as their situations. Is there a way to go about becoming 100% dead emotionally yet still retain joy from living as a parasite?