I am a 23 year old, slim, attractive (or so I've been told) male with a 17cm cock and perhaps 1 flaw in that I have some light scarring from acne when I was a teen. I have a low self esteem and think it negatively effects my relations with others both social (I behave like an ass sometimes) and romantic...2 confessions: 1) I have been watching porn for a very long time and am incredibly fucked up, I watch everything from cuckold to bestiality. The more fucked up the better. 2) My very serious girlfriend of almost 2 years broke up with me for 2 days about a month ago and during those 2 days I contacted, visited and fucked my evil (now apparently lesbian) ex gf. - It was amazing and she was soo tight! I loved eating her little pussy...I also fucked her on the bed in the apartment my current gf and I live in, she came multiple times and I can't get the image of her arching her back on my bed every time my current gf and I go to bed. HERE is the huge problem: My evil ex is into ladies and would love to fuck my current gf and I want it to happen but my gf would never...THE THOUGHT IS TORTURING ME! FUCK! I CAN'T GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD...I'm a horrible person.