I am a successful, happily married young man. I have a job many would dream of but I suffer from bouts of extreme depression. If I acknowledge this in my psych evaluations I'll probably never be able to continue with my career as depression in my profession is frowned upon. I can't burden my wife with it as she suffers from anxiety disorders, so I just pretend to be ok if she asks what's wrong. My depression drives my to constantly seeks new knowledge or exercise. And if I have time off I drinking sleeping tablets so I can sleep and escape reality.