Lately I keep feeling so depressed again. Whatever bad happens no matter how important it makes me feel like crying and so sad. I ust can't find happiness and when I do its just for few minutes. I would.just lay in bed all days without doing anything creative. I leave my room just to eat and use the bathroom but even those things I do less than the day before. I'm having those suicidal thoughts again. I tried to kill myself several times in the past. I'm just 23 and I'm afraid I might try to do it once again even if now I know it's stupid and it's not the answer.