I just spent three hours crying. tried to reach out to the people who said "they loved me". too tired. asleep. unavailable. no response. eyes swollen. nose stuffed. I want to be angry, but...I just can't. I'm just a number just a another statistic. angry at nothing that matters. when I go, I'm gone, going. good bye. didn't matter anymore. good bye. you made me beautiful for a moment. wish I was beautiful for a life time. I love you. I loved you. dance. you are beautiful.