It really hurts to not know, no one ever admits the truth about anything really! I of course am wrong for sure...but I'm trying to deal with this pain for real! You say I seek attention, how so? Attention seekers are the ones with a life they get the attention, the success and all the joys of life! They have tons of friends, and that one special friend with whom they can pour their heart n soul n share all that misery. I will be alone, u will probably be laughing at me for sure But the point you will miss is that, I waited for you to understand I'm only yours Marrying someone else cuz u want a family is easy, wanting a family with one special person and to wait for them forever is love! If I was worth it, maybe i'de have had that too But, unfortunately I'm nothing, I don't get to experience same things that pretty, smart, wise and independent girls do I'm not smart, pretty or independent ...not at all! I do t even know what I am...! But I too want to be loved unconditionally Want to be loved just for who I am..no matter how arrogant, paranoid, accusing, argumentative, uneducated and poor But we all know, that unconditional anything I will never have....my fate only has pain and feelings of helplessness seeded in every part of my body n soul.