I'm 16, female and straight edge and proud of this life decision (Not that I'm better than anyone else that isn't. I just think it's a nice way of living.) However I recently went through a horrible break up (especially for my age it is a lot. The relationship lasted almost 11 months and the breakup involves a lot of false promises, lies and me being cheated on) and in my country drinking and purchasing beer at age 16 is legal and well... I feel like drinking the pain away when celebrating the new year. But I don't want to be hypocritical to my philosophy, it would be weak in my eyes. I'm feeling very conflicted about this. What do you think I should do?