I just learned that I have hpv and my partner most likely has it too, the sad part is that it's high risk and I'm showing signs of cervical cancer. He was angry with me for 'lying' about being clean but I was just as shocked as he was when we got my test results back. I fear that I'm going to lose him even though he said he's staying, no matter how bitter things may get. If I get cervical cancer he'll stay, but will he stay if he gets cancer from the same variant of hpv? it's difficult to read the future and foolish to attach 'What if' or 'but when', worrying only makes things worse. So why do I worry that he'll leave me even after he's told me he's staying? I'm scared that I'll never feel sexy for my partner again and I wish I would of been more acknowledged in the hpv vaccines.