I am terrified of getting sick. Diabetes, Cancer, some crazy viral infection, anything like that. It horrifies me. I'm overweight, used to smoke a pack every two days, and eat fast food all the time. Now I quit smoking, I've been going to the gym at least three nights a week and my diet has improved tremendously. But I'm still scared. Scared it might be too late, that because of the way i used to live that the clock is already ticking. I don't want to die in a hospital, hooked up to machines. I don't want people to remember me as sick, wasting away, that when I die people will say "I'm just glad it's over. He suffered so much." I'm only 23 and I'm horrified. I know that life isn't fair. There are innocent eight year old kids dying of cancer right now. The fact that I've lived my life up to this point with no health problems is a grace. But I hope my luck doesn't run out. That someday I'll get the news that will eclipse the rest of my life.