I'm a girl. I've been in four relationships or semi-relationships so far. The past three guys have either been brutally given the cold shoulder and shoved out of my life or cheated on by me starting something with another guy before I officially ended it with them. I'm not proud of it, and I don't want to be "that girl". I never intended to do any of it, and now I don't trust myself not to do the same to the current guy in my life.