So I had these suicidal thoughts again lately. When I was down I accidently told out loud that I want to hang myself again and I said it next to my gf. She was really sad after that and cried. I bought her flowers to say I'm sorry and promised that I will finally go see a psychologist but I just can't motivate myself to do that. I mean I will spend a lot of money just to hear from someone that I'm f... up and I must change that. I ALREADY KNOW THAT, DAMMIT! Has anyone went to psychologist to get help and actually received it? In my opinion it's just a waste of money. What do you think?