Whenever I think of you, I always feel this sort of emptiness and hatred internally. I have learned how to live and breathe into this darkness for many years though. Ever since you left, my mind and heart fell into darkness. Now, it seems that my body and soul craves and yearns for them. It is as if my heart turned into obsidian itself. It turned out that I never really needed you after all. In fact, it was my cursed attachment to you that brought hell into my life. As of now, I'm learning how to master and control the abyss. I guess damnation saved me after all. Yet my hatred for you shall linger on. Because I've brought you into my life, I have turned away from all the things I used to believe in namely God. Know that the moment that we cross paths once again that things will be different. The moment that you gaze into me with your longing, or should I say your deceptive eyes, once again, know that it will never be the same as few years ago. if you ever wish to bring back those past years, you will never get anything from me. Not only have I removed you from my life, but I have also discarded those who know you in particular. Truly, I will find a suitable replacement - the antithesis of you. As soon as I burn every traces of you, whether it is through hating or cursing you, I shall find happiness. Smile, for this truth is what you await, yet know that I await for your destruction as soon as you open that door that never closes. You daresay that you love me, then indeed I shall say that I abhor you. Alas, may your destruction be haste and swift!