I simply do not know what to do. Ive deleted all social medias, ive lost interest in most all games. I even lost the motivation to smoke weed. All I do all day is think, its a 24 hour conversation in my head. I'm not sad, I'm not depressed or Anything. I am a genuinely happy guy, optimistic most of the time. My ideas have simply drifted soo far away from the average person. It's very difficult to talk to people about Anything. I can still laugh and make Everyone laugh. Thats been my gift since childhood. But No one can stick to a real conversation with me for long. I think It might have to do with past drug experiences, but its my reality now. It's what the kids would call "crazy" I'm sailing on my personally crafted island of society. I can manage to mask this with my extremely outgoing funny personality. But, I cant sleep anymore, go to bed at 12, toss and turn untill 4 AM and the be wide awake and ready to go at 6 AM . I dont remember my last dream. And now I'm in the dark, finger punching this plastic box about my emotional concerns. Goodnight, folks.