I'm saying I don't want to be your friend. I'm saying I dislike you. I've lost respect for you, as I know you've lost it for me. I think you lack a backbone, so to speak. You will always fight. You just fight for yourself all the time. And I mean in the sense that you disregard others for the sake of your pride. That's not always a fault. But you've made arguments with me that have contradicted beliefs I thought you once held. I'm giving up on you. I'm saying we're done for the sake of my pride. I won't accept ultimatums of friendship. I defined a best friend as someone I may not always see, but when I do it's a party. That could be us, but you want conditions. My friendship is effortless. I ask for nothing but yourself. I deal with all the bullshit and and laugh at all the details. We're friends because we make each other better. Because I'm not perfect and neither are you. We chase it for fun and laugh along the way. It's happiness without restrictions. It's natural. I will nod to you in the hallway. I'll say hi when I have the time. I'll even ask how you're doing with sincere curiosity. But I don't expect you to be there for me when I need it. I'm not your child. I'm your friend, with childish tendencies.