I will crack my ribcage open. I will stop my own neart. I will send 700 bolts through my body. I will stab my arm with a syringe. I will throw myself into a burning fire. I will submerge myself in water. I will stop eating. I will stop drinking. I will stop everything. Just to stop my head from twisting into a knot. And I will. Oh fuck, I will. But its too late. My head is a mess.