I had so many plans for the future that involved my best friend... now, I realize she hardly ever cared, and she cares even less now. I don't have any friends, and the people I hang out with all treat me like shit. I hate it but I don't want to completely give up on them, even though I know there's no chance they'll care. One of them threatened to slit my throat, and everyone else accepted it. I wish I could just keep one friendship alive and learn to deal with problems without my anxiety getting in the way.