He's handsome, he's smart, he's funny, he likes to watch movies and series with me, he likes to travel with me, he's got good taste, he's caring, he's romantic, he's thoughtful, hug it calms me down, he's got a nice body, he's my cousin, he's perfect. The only problem is that he's straight ... and it's tearing me apart. It's killing me inside. There is no future for it. What should I do?