I feel so lonely right now... I feel like my bestfriends are being busy, they achieve something, they start to run and get what they want in their life... and here I am... still have no idea what I want to achieve in my life. and here I am, trapped in artificial image of fandom wasted my time to watch it everyday and feel so happy about it.. I keep being absent minded, clumsy, and so on.. just keep them underestimated me. My stupid image still in their mind.