I have a party to go to next weekend, all of my 'friends' from high school are going. The thought alone has sent me into an anxiety attack and I only found out a little while ago. The thought of seeing them and them seeing me, they'll probably think I've gotten so fat and gross. I have no idea what we'll talk about or if I'll even speak at all. I'm on a downward spiral, I can't eat, sleep or think about anything else.