My past has been traumatic. I was molested as a child and neglected by my parents through out my teenage years. I have had tumultuous relationships with boys and I deliberately make them fall in love with me so I can hurt them knowing I am the only one who can. I know its wrong which is why I avoid dating guys anymore. I only do it in the faint hope that someone out there might just feel a fraction of pain I did. Being physically abused, living in poverty. Its sick, but it makes me happy. I sometimes dream about killing people who hurt me and perform acts of cannibalism on them. I know its sick, but in a twisted way it gives me pleasure I cannot articulate.