i really hate sounding like an annoying middle class teenager because those are so obnoxious but i understand now that sometimes i just need to let it out. I feel so privileged to have so much land and a cat and a computer and a big room and a piano and enough pocket change to buy a water dragon for my tank.....but i dont think im a good person. i complain sometimes and it just makes me need to check my privileges. I cry sometimes over stuff people would think im spoiled to cry over. I never cry over things like not getti g what i want or anything childish, i like to be a lot more mature than that, but i cry cause i miss my dog and my friend and i think about sad fanfictions and shit and fuck it makes me realize that on the inside i really am just a junkie teenager who doesnt give a fuck about big houses and expenses and being completely rich. I just want a cozy little house or a penthouse/apartment and a laptop and phone and a cat and a nice job i like and some small change so i can pick up some dinner on my way home from work and fuck i dont wanna live big i just wanna be a little small. Thats all i want.