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I don't want to be the person who can't forget someone. I had 2 exes. I told my story here before. The first one lasted for 4 years, the second was a fling when I was with my ex, as I've said before, he cheated and fooled me many times and I forgave him until he continued again, so I had enough, I was honest and told him that I will take a revenge, I loved someone else which is my classmate that time in college. We were fooling around (kissing, never had sex with anyone) for the whole semester. I really fell hard for this person. He is a playboy, atleast more honest than my ex, my ex pretended to be a good guy, while this one is already a bad guy, so it is my fault if I fell for him. I did, hard. To be exact that was in 2009. The worst part is I can't forget him, I already forgot easily my 1st cheating bf of 4 years, but this one, I really can't... I know it is possible to move on because I did on my ex, but why I can't on him? We don't have any contact as of now, Since college grad in 2010. But when I went back to fb and had contact with old friends, they told me he was looking for me (2011/2012) and they don't know why, the moment I heard it, my heart beated like hell, all the ecstatic feeling I had with him everyday in school came back. So I immediately looked at his profile, and he is taken. I felt sad, but I have no intentions of ruining else someone's relationship, because I know how it hurts, I cried for 3 years everyday. Worst part of all, I am currently in a relationship since 2012, so I feel really bad. Because I can't get him off my mind. I feel guilty, though I am not doing anything to get in touch with the fling, but everytime I hear songs related to us, I feel really happy and sad. I just need to get this off my chest. And I was thankful that he considered me as a gf, as what his friend told me, in 2010 he transfered in another school, his friend suddenly asked me, "are you *name* ex?" I was like really surprised, because as far as I know we have no label, although at one point he asked me to be his gf but he was drunk, so I knew that it was nothing. I don't know, thank you for all the memories, I wish I could forget you for real.

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