don't judge me for this please I've always been labeled as a player, because I can't handle being alone. yes I'm a young girl and I've jumped from guys/girls trying to find someone that makes me feel like I'm not invisible. There is one person that made me feel like I was on top of the world and I loved him and still do. I started talking to him February 12th, 2015 after a Valentine's day dance at my old school. We dated for a few months and went on two dates. After we broke up I got with 3 guys and 1 girl. I was put into homeschooling, after we broke up. no one has made me feel the same since. As of March 24th, 2016 I attended his grandma's funeral. I wanted to be there for his mom, sister and him. Granted that we haven't talked since Valentines day 2016, but I was there. his grandma ended up in the hospital with heart failure about a week before the boys birthday. during the time she was in the hospital I was worried, panic attacks lasted for hours, I couldn't eat. I was so upset. but the boy and his family didn't know. at her funeral I held his hand during the service/mass. I told him I love him. the boys name is Jake/Jacob .E. we started dating again afterwards. I found that his dad had cancer which that's what my dad died from. I told Jake I will always be here for him. anyways I love him and I know I will for a long time I don't want to lose him.