I've struggled on and off with my weight and self image. For the past 6 years, I've lived on the cusp of an eating disorder. Wether it be binging, purging, starving or extreme workout; food and my body have been the enemy. I'll go months of losing 15 lbs at a time then gain it all back by binging uncontrollably for months. I'm in med school and know it's a sickness. I know the psychology and biology of it. I despise when people comment on how much weight I've lost and how worried they are about me not eating enough. It makes my skin crawl. No matter how much I lose it won't ever be enough. My confession is that I can feel myself slipping into a very serious illness and I won't do anything to stop it.