I realize that some of these stories may be made up and I wish mine was. I really do. I've been fucked up. I've screwed up my life. I lost the love of my life. My family doesn't know the I am addicted to cocaine. Dependent on pot and Xanax to help me with the withdrawals. I just need something. I'm completely broke because I have spent my money on drugs. And now I'm failing one of my classes that my parents paid for and I just I'm a screwed up human. I'm sorry I shouldn't have said anything. I'll stop now. I'm just so sorry for everything I really am. I just need to find a way out. Everything is collapsing. I wanna be gone.