If my parents knew what i would become, would they still decide to have me? If my friends knew from the start what kind of person i am, would they still have talked to me? If my boss knew that i would suck at my job, would he have hired me? I hate my life. I'm drunk again and i'm lonely. I don't want this anymore. Life isn't a gift. I didn't ask for any of this. I don't know if i'm even able to feel happyness. I wont find something that keeps me alive. i tried so many things and i failed every single time. end it please.