I hate feeling like a failure so much. I've always strived to become the ideal person that everyone wants me to be. I've tried to be that hard-working, polite, and intelligent person they've wanted me to be because I felt that they will like me for who I am. Moreover, I've also tried doing something about this of course. I would read books to and there, and I find myself thinking that I know everything. Letting go of this pride is the most difficult obstacle I've ever had. I just wonder why my life needs to run like this. Are there any answers at all that would resolve my current issues immediately. I mean we have all of this technology for instance to acquire information from any topic whatsoever. Yet, how come I don't know myself very well? I guess this is just me seeing the world and myself for what it really is, not what I want them to be. I don't know. I don't know pretty much of anything.