I recognize this feeling of hating myself and just about everything else. I remember feeling like this for about a year, wondering if i had depression or a stress related disorder but being too scared to find out, feeling miserable and like just quitting to sleep forever every day, always being on the verge of an emotional breakdown, all of it... until one day, i woke up and was over it. I felt happy for a couple months and didn't even need to use confesstor. But i guess my brain got tired of enjoying itself. so it's back to this hell.