I absolutely hate that after almost three years, two other relationships with two other guys, I still get caught off guard by memories and dreams of you. All of a sudden i'm not so over you. You played with my feelings, And i let you, You didn't know if you were straight/bi/gay, But i loved you so much i didn't mind being your lab rat. You are the first and only person i've ever wanted to cuddle more than have sex with. Just being held by you was more than sex could come close to. You are the love of my life, And i'm terrified i'll never be loved as much as i loved you.