For my entire childhood I had an abusive mother who used to curse us to hell and beat us for no reason. She has recently become light hearted but still extremely unstable. I am now 20 and I feel nothing for her. All she ever does is burden me with her problems and I feel more like her father than her son considering that I still have to pretend like I'm raising her. I want to love her as a mother, but to me, she is nothing.