I've been bullied for many years. I was told that I was completely worthless so many times that I actually started to believe it. I've even become so insecure that I'm scared of using public bathrooms. I'm afraid people will hear me pee and will judge me. No matter how hard I try, I cannot go to the toilet in public bathrooms. It's as if my brain just won't allow me to. I constantly think people will judge me. I wish I wouldn't care so much about what people (might) think of me so I could have a normal life again.