My boyfriend of 5 years became sort of disgusting to me since I found his porn collection. We talked about it and he agreed to not store porn on his pc, because he knows how it affects me, but it didn't help. I know, problem is in me and i don't want to ruin our relationship, so i keep silent. But knowing that he still does it - killing me on the inside. I'm afraid that he thinks about those perfect women from internet, or his pretty coworkers when in bed with me. It's been 3 years since i found out.