need some honest and sensible advice PLEASE. I made a post a month or so ago after being told my step brother had died from overdosing on herion.. I have been staying at my grieving step moms since he died and she showed me his personal Journal's. .. she asked me to see if I was able to read them as his writing was messy and she couldn't make out what most of it said... now, I sat up all night... in his old room; reading his diaries. Man, he was so unhappy. He said things like : "I can never be happy again without herion" "If I stay sober, I am drowning in my depression" "If only I could find solace... with no consequences" and then I came to the last page he had written.. it was dated 3 days before his death.. He had planned this. It was suicide. These are the words that confirmed this: I can't do this any longer, I know I am weak and I know I will go to hell for this but it will be peaceful like falling asleep.. I won't be suffering any longer. My soul will remain lost and I will be floating over the graveyard where my corpse lays, searching for another lost soul" 3 days later.. herion overdose... after being clean for 8 months! My question I need to ask you guys is: Do I tell my step mother? She is already blaming herself enough and filled with guilt. But I know that if I had my 20 year old son overdose on herion.. I would want to know each and every detail. I would simply need to know. For closure and for peace. She's wondered if it was laced (bad batch) , if it was because he had such a long break.. And I don't think she has contemplated as much if it was suicide. It's been a week now since I have known the truth.. Would telling her help or do I need to keep my mouth shut until she discovers it herself?