My boyfriend and his sister both work at this company and I'm trying to get a job. They told me to go into HR and talk to them. But I just can't do it. The thought of it gives me a panic attack. I'm scared. I'm scared I'll annoy them or they'll just tell me to wait on a call. They called and left a message, I called back and left a message for them. I looked online for suggestions on how to word what I want to say and seem confident, but all I found was a forum with people telling me not to do that because it's useless and annoying. It's aggravating my boyfriend because I really need a job but I can't do this thing he wants me to. So I start having a breakdown thinking about walking in there without an appointment and then it gets worse thinking about how I'm making him mad and what am I going to do? I don't think either of them understands that I'm not just lazy or don't want this, I just can't do it. I can't. If HR will call me back, I'll gladly talk to them. But I'm not giving myself a panic attack on the way there or in the parking lot, just to waste my time and theirs. I'm dressed up like I'm ready to go there but I just can't do it.