Everytime I go on my job as a trainee in a hospital, I really want to kill myself, why? I don't love what I do, I took my course because of my parents. I am always out of sync. I am not happy. The only reason I go is because I don't have a fall back. I don't even know if I am good at something. I am just so unhappy that it affected my evaluation. I did learn to love it, but I just can't make things right, I can't commit a damn mistake in a hospital, and I am very worried about this everyday.