How did I end up in this shithole? I've been here for way too long, why am I still here right now? I gotta get myself together, I've already ruined 10 years of my life with this. How am I only realizing it right now? It's time. I'm done. I am truly done, right here, right now. It's like I've been in a coma. Well, I'm awakening. Leaving this filthy addiction. It has immensely ruined me both mentally and physically. Oh my, what have I done. I'm still here. I still have control. This will be the day I started living. December 22nd, 2016. I will look at this message whenever I feel weak against to remind myself.