I'm really paranoid about getting HIV from my ex when we were together. I don't even know how many times he cheated on me or lied to me. well i've had my blood tested a lot in the hospital when i had sepsis but i don't think that looking for HIV is a standard procedure. i guess i'll have to ask for a test, which is extremely embarassing since i'm not even 18 yet and already stressing about this. imagine the first and only person i trusted with my body and heart immediately ruining my life with a virus that causes a deadly disease. the stress is building up as i'm writing this.