You hear all these coming out stories and it's people being like "oh I knew in elementary school, but I denied it." "I crushed on girls as early as kindergarten." All these stories of people saying they knew from such young ages. And here I am like "I had no idea until I was 18." I just always thought I wasn't interested in relationships. Being with a girl never even crossed my mind. Maybe my stuffy, tiny, conservative town is to blame for that. But over the course of about a year and a half-two years, I've come out to myself, my friends, and my family. I know who I am. I know who I love. But I hate listening to friends and others just gush about how they always knew, that they just ignored it. And I worry that when it comes my turn to tell my whole story, I'll catch flack because I didn't know when I was younger. But I can't help that. it was never really even an option I thought I could have back then.