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I have my insecurities and my confidence is shaky due to past abusive relationships. I know I'm not ugly but I also know im not the best thing on earth. It's hard for me to trust men. I've been with guys ugly with a great personality to the infamous hot asshole and everything in between. I guess I have very bad judgement because every relationship I seem to get into ends bad. I've never been with a guy that made me feel good about myself until recently. Being with someone who makes me feel beautiful, appreciated, and wanted is such a foreign feeling to me. I'm used to feeling useless, worthless, and ugly. There have been times in previous relationships where I didnt even want to go out in public because I felt so worthless and emotionally drained. I wish I didn't let these past guys affect me like they did but when someone is constantly telling you you're this, that, the other over and over and over again it gets to you. Then when you meet someone new that treats you the same way it's like wow he said it , he said it and this other guy said it, maybe it's reality. It's easy to say what you WOULD do if you were in a bad situation when you're not in it. When you're in a relationship with an abuser going against them only leads to more abuse. They try to manipulate you mentally, physically, and emotionally to the point where you're not yourself and you're not thinking properly. It honestly scars you for life. It's something you never forget no matter how hard you try. There aren't enough words in this world I could use to express how thankful I am that god finally blessed me with someone who makes me feel like a better person. It's like a dream I don't want to wake up in the middle of. It's a fresh start to me and I hope that I can use my experiences to help other people that are in abusive relationships because nobody should be stripped if their confidence and freedom

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