Been a while since my last confession .. But I've been feeling at a standstill for a while and just recently , some changes have been made in terms of my living situation and it got me thinking again . My fiances brother , girlfriend and child moved in with us about a week ago, And it's been fine, she's a real sweet girl , helpful and all.. So I can't complain. It's just that I feel so stuck, and since we're all they have here , i feel like emotionally I'm not in the right position to be someone's mentor , or be their "one" person. I need my alone time.. I need to be alone even for a little bit, and idk.. I just don't know what the future holds. I have my man and daughter and I love them, I just want to live with them , happily , it's literally all I ask. I didn't mention the best part : my mother lives with us too.. And she's the most difficult person to deal with. I'm just really depressed as usual... I don't know why true happiness for me moves in slow motion. I don't get it. I'm almost 30 and I still don't have the stuff I feel I need to be truly happy. I'm also pmsing so that makes everything a lot worse and not to mention, my man and his brother have been working a lot so we've been alone together and I mean I really like the girl , but I don't like having other people as my responsibility. I already have a 2 year old and she's my only responsibility .. And it's so hard taking care of her when I have all these emotional issues .. And ontop of that I gotta worry about my crazy mother and a girl I just met. I don't want to. And I'm such a good person, I don't get why I need to put my wants last. I deserve to have what I want cuz I've sacrificed that my entire life. I think I deserve happiness !!!